Less drugged Aunt and evening of Rach

Again, it was the same old stuff, i really want my variety to my life :(... I had work, in which i am so glad it's friday. Got this christmas do work thing, in which me and chris challenged two of our co-workers to a drink off, before the thing actually starts, so everyone is gonna hate us lol, but it will be cool. Work was SOOOOO easy, as there was absolutely nothing to do... AT ALL.

Took rach to see my aunt i nhospital today as she was in reading wednesday so couldn't visit then. I think my aunt really appreciated it, she seems to really like rach, which makes it even harder if i was ever gonna break up with her LOL, as most my family love her more then me :P :)... too right, she is adorable :)
After the hospital, we just went to my nans for dinner, which was AWSOME, i love her pasta, was soooooooo nice. We then travelled back to mine where films were watched. We watched Superbad, which was an alright film, could be better, could be worse, was enjoyable though, and then we watched James Bond: Casino Royale, which i actually really like, i think she enjoyed it to so that's cool... Oh oh, then we watched Austin Powers: Man Of Mystery... was a tiresome yet cool night.

I still cannot stand the way i think at the moment... it's so annoying, i really wanna change, I REALLY DO. IT SUCKS. I HATE ME.

I'm currently wathcing Robocop, which is awsome, and looking forward to tomorrow, where i shall be going to reading to visit ian, that will be cool. Will be a different weekend for once.

I WANNA CHANGE :(

GOALS *PULLS ANGRY FACE*

Work... goals (football), that sums up my day...
Work = easy and boring
Football = easy and annoying as we some how bloody lost to the worst team i have seen so far :( tis sad

Was talking to sarah again, which is cool :).
Missing rach as she's in reading, but i'll see her tomorrow
Feeling bit worried bout my aunt, it sucks how ill she is

At the moment, things aren't brilliant at all, but i'm hoping to cheer myself up by finally sending off my UCAS and purchasing some DVD's... WOOP WOOP

If anyone actually reads this, sorry for the short update :)

Donkey Punch UCAS

Today was same old same old, kinda. Work. Late again :P 5 minutes this time :). It was after work that my day began.

Went to see my aunt whose in hospital at the moment. She has so much wrong with her, fluid in her stomach which they can't take out coz it keeps moving round so they have to try time it right and stuff. Her liver is dying slowly so it's nearly guaranteed she'll need a transplant. She's bruised everywhere, soar everywhere, and has very high blood pressure. She is a very sick woman and it's affecting the family really bad. My uncle is in tears nearly all the time, her children are taking it very badly, as expected, my nan burst into tears when i was round her house, asking me to take care of her (her as in my nan, not my aunt, that's what the doctors do) as there is speculation that she may not recover, as it's a very very rare condition, i think the doctors said it only happens to about 1 in a 1000 people. And it's stupid because she doesn't even drink, and her liver is dying. It's really upsetting. But she was in high spirts, not suprising as she was very high on drugs and could not stop talking. was really funny. the funniest thing was when she overheard me talking bout the film "Donkey Punch" with my cousin, and insisted that i explained what it was lol. I had to explain to like 8 different people :P... i hope she gets better soon, she's cool :).

Just finished my UCAS application for 2009, finally... Haven't sent it off yet though as i gotta ring Mr Harris and comfirm some dates first of all, it's a long story and i can't be bothered to right bout it.

My mind started going off on the thing it does again. The thing i can't talk/write about just incase it gets out. Was really annoying, as if it does get out not only will it screw up EVERYTHING, it will screw a lot of people over as well. so i'll keep it bottled up. FUN :(

Hand Balloons, Random Texting and a Two Minute Punishment

Quote of the Day: Ian: "HOLY FUCK, I just bounced a piece of paper of two walls and into a bin, over my shoulder, without looking. Fuck the past 9 months with Jemma, this is the happiest moment of my life"

Lol, didn't really wanna do one these quote of the day things, as ian started it and didn't wanna copy and stuff, but when pure genius like the above is said, i believe it earns recognition, and i think it makes it that slightly bit better that it was ian anyway :)

Me and Brooksy were a whole two minutes late too work today, oh no. This therefore meant, due to the new "clocking in" system, that when it hit 17:00, we had to stay till 17:02, massive punishment there, it just meant that we said bye for 2 minutes longer :P... Forgot to mention yesterday as well that the Polish people in my work place have been banned from speaking polish to one another :S... surely that's illegal, freedom of speach and not allowing someone to speak that native tounge. Plus it's absolutely ridiculous lol. What's even funnier is the ban was placed on their break times specifically, not while they are actually working, so that's really weird and confusing for them, as well as totally pissing them off. The funniest thing i heard from an english person who agrees with the ban is this:
English Person: "Too right, i find it disrespectful when i'm in the room with them and they're speaking polish, adn they are in are country" (it was something along those lines)
Random Person: "So if you had to go poland and work there a bit (as the company is also set up in poland and sometimes swap employees sorta) you would speak polish?"
English Person: "Well no, that's totally different"

Lol, no it's not, but it don't bother me, i don't speak polish, just think it's bit odd and out of order as they are quite cool.
Got really bored at work today, so i sent people my usual random text, had some funny replies, but it got me talking to sarah again for a bit which was cool as i haven't heard from her since she left. Also today was my bosses 40th birthday, which none of us knew, so we made balloons out of the gloves we wear lol, thus the part of "hand balloons" in the title :P.

I'm currently bored out of my mind and waiting for the Man United match to kick off, should revise, but i'm a failure so oh well. Ordering pizza soon which should cheer me up even tho i really wanna go on a diet again. But yes, life's a bit dull and rubbish at the mo. I say rubbish, it just feels it coz if i was to go through what i have in comparison, then life is great, i just wanna do more with it and change the way i am...

Computer Training and an Illusion

I do hate bloody monday mornings :(, wish they didn't exist, had to be up at 7:20am just to ensure that i was on time for work. Of course i struggled getting up for this time as sleep is good, but i managed to get me and chris there on time. Work was pretty much completely pointless today, 3 hours was spent learning how to input data onto the computer, basically simple simple training so that they could ask us to do it in the future. Was pointless, but because of the lack of work today, there is SOOOOOOO much to do tomorrow, which is gonna totally suck, but hey, that's work for ya, stop moaning bout it :P. But yes, work was boring and such, but it's money, easy easy money so hey, i need that so it's all good :)

I'm currently watching a film that i just bought which i really enjoyed when i last watched it, tis called "The Illusionist". Has Ed Norton, who i think is a really cool actor, and Jessica Biel, who can't really act that well, but she's very hot so who cares :P... but yeah, it tis a cool film and interesting to watch.

But yes, this blog was only created for me to really view and question myself as i'm always confused, so i don't know why i'm writing as if others are going to view it that much, if at all. But yes, i still wish i know why i act and think the way i do, as i don't like it. I don't wish to moan bout it tho as many more people are a lot worse off then i am, thus the blog, but i don't know. lifes confusing, and on top of the way i act, i ahev to study for re-sits in january, more of a pride thing then actually needing the grades, but yet, i still can't revise yet, as i just cannot conjure up enough motivation to do so which totally sucks... but oh well, tis down to me... i do really enjoy this film, Norton is a cool actor, he was in fight club so HE MUST BE... plus, if you don't think he is, he'll turn into "The Incredible Hulk" and CRUSH TINY *Insert your name here*... I shall now finish watching this film and then i decide what to go with myslef after that.


http://www.spikedhumor.com/articles/168413/Best-BMX-Flatlander.html <---- HOW? HOW DO EVEN LEARN THAT? WHEN DO YOU GET TO THE POINT WHERE YOU JUST SAY YOU KNOW WHAT, SCREW THE SADDLE, I WANNA RIDE UPSIDE DOWN, HOW DO YOU LEANR THAT LOL? I SWEAR IT'S IMPOSSIBLE... one of the best comments on the video has to be the guy who posted "that's not how you ride a bike 0.o", made me laugh

First... probably last depending on when i have time and can be bothered

Yesterday was dains birthday, and kirsty's of course, but we were at dains pub for it. twas quite a good night actually. i once again seemed to ignore rachel and socialise more then spend time with her. i mean, yeah i should defiantely talk to other people, ya know "bros before hoes" and all taht jazz, but i think i seem to take that too far when out with lots of other people, which sucks, because i love her so much and yet i still just don't bother :(... rachel got very drunk, bradley that is, not sheard, and was absolutely hilarious on the LONG FREEZING JOURNEY back to mine in which female sheard and steve shep came with me and rachel (bradley)... that was an interesting journey, as again, i seemed to prefer just watching rachel (bradley) stumble along, falling over and make a fool of herself (not a bad fool, an entertaining fool) rather then take care of her, coz suprisingly, even after many a drink, i was still wasn't drunk at all really, i think i have newquay, brooksy's brothers and the trip to torquay to blame for that, as i have become used to drinking a hella lot of alcohol, which is bad :(... more expensive :P... but yes, back to the point... i prefered to just watch her stumble along in which she may have hurt herself... wish i knew why i've become the way i have... I MUST CHANGE DAMMIT

I'm currently watching match of the day 2 and pondering life... as well as wondering why i had the urge to write a blog when i prefer reading them like ians... ians blog is cool and i can't be bothered to have one... yet i still find myself writing one.. hmmmmm...